19 May 2017
This is a log I have written in my head at least a few dozen times in a variety of ways. The last year has been since surgery has been bigger for my personal growth and self realization than I ever could have predicted. An easy timeline of events leading up to today. Knee Surgery followed by a smashing rehab and recovery, I was feeling back on my game. Roughly a year after surgery my lower back started having issues SI strains and my low back feeling constantly out of joint every few months. When physio would fix these issues then my hip would feel sore. My Hip pain got so bad I pushed for an X-ray, which led to the revelation of how bad my hip was internally leading to the series of surgeon's visits getting me to where I am now.
Along the way a few other things happened in my life. My work sent me 2 hrs from home to Ottawa to live and to start working shift work for the first time. The news of the pending surgery came in at this time. My daily pain levels were rising ever so slowly un-noticed by me causing my sleep to be an issue. My shift schedule and isolated living situation allowed me to sleep more than I had in years. Yet I was still tired. So I asked for a sleep study, which determined the Apnea diagnosis and gave me a CPAP machine. That machine became a game changer for me, still there were issues.
My training was consistently bad with very few highlights. I was living a situation of work, travelling home, consistent pain, decreasing physical function, and consistently exhausted from the messed up sleep schedule and at times insomnia. I stopped creating goals. I started to give up on myself. Depression started to settle in regularly. I decided for the second time in my life I would reach out for professional help. I needed tools to deal with everything going on in my head. I was broken physically and I had sought a surgeon to fix it. When that was repaired I would seek a coach to get me back to a hundred percent. In the mean time I needed a coach to rebuild and train me mentally. Mental toughness is something that needs to be exercised just like a muscle, daily.
More shortly.
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